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Sometimes I feel so lost. I feel incapable of everything and wonder how I will achieve the dreams I have. Will I be brave or have enough courage to travel and see what I want to see. Will I be good or interesting enough to be a successful writer. I close up and believe that these things are impossible, stuff that only occurs in movies. I question what I'm doing and whether I will ever get where I want to go. Life is about mistakes and wrong decisions, and I guess I have to believe that if I want it bad enough than I can have it. And being scared of something or not doing something because of the consequences would not really be living would it. To get to something good we have to go through something bad, a challenge.

new year

I know, how incredibly cliché of me to write a new year post. To be honest I like the idea of reflecting on the past year and creating goals for the next one. My year has been insane, I completed my first year of uni and discovered what it is I want do with my life, which is journalism, writing whatever you want to call it. I spent the year with the most amazing guy I've ever met/imagined/dreamed of etc. I really am very lucky to have him. I dyed my hair pink! something I have always wanted to do since my sister dyed her tips pink ala Hannah from S Club 7. I met amazing people and some other not so amazing people. I created the room of my dreams. It was a pretty amazing year.

For next year I tried to narrow my resolutions to five, because I had a couple hundred on my mind.

1. Get a new job - I have been working at Gone Bazzar for four years now and it has been a great first job, I was extremely lucky to get the position as my first job. I've learnt so much and had so many laughs but it's time for a change. 
2. Appreciate what I have and be positive - To be honest I can be pretty selfish, and I complain a lot about what I 'need' and what I don't have and I don't take in what I do have. Nobody likes a negative bitch.
3. Be happy - I freak out a lot and make situations bigger than they are/need to be. I just need to calm down and live in the moment.
4. Have fun- I turned 18 this year and I have been so lame, and have done absolutely nothing (one night out), this year I want to do more and do things I haven't before. Life is all about risk and trying new things.
5. Live. - Self explanatory.