sabotage

I'm sick of self-sabotaging myself. I always end up depressed because I'm bored and I have nothing to do, and I don't try anything to lift my mood. I then end up emotional and upset. As much as I hate to admit it Gorcin's right, I do this to myself, I have the power to control my emotions and I choose not to, instead I let myself spiral downwards. I'm so sick of it! and I'm annoyed that I'm so pathetic as to let myself get this way. I have so much going for me, and once again I fail to realise what I have and I focus way too much on what I don't. I'm putting an end to it. I'm not going to let this happen anymore. I'm so blessed to have the life that I have, and the freedoms I have. I'm not going to be that whiny first world girl complaining about her life. I want to be passionate and motivated! Loving life and doing anything and everything I can to live life to the fullest. I want so much for myself, and I'm the only one standing in my own way.