cracks in the mirror

Friendships are such fragile things. One day they're going wonderfully, the next day feelings are forgotten, lost, or broken by meaningless events. We put so much effort into our friendships with others, yet small problems and issues easily destroy them. Or the people involved simply change, as we all do every now and again, and then the person you were friends with doesn't exist anymore. Why is it that friendships even break? we had the we'll-be-friends-forever speech, and the we're-going-to-live-together speech, all of that stuff. Yet i know things aren't the same, we act as if everything is okay but an awkward sense of formality exists and we ignore it. It's sad because nothing really happened, no big fall out with harsh bitchy words said. I just changed and grew as a person and she didn't, and i don't feel the same closeness as I once did. I wish there was a big fallout that way I could just hate you and it would be over with. But of course it is more complicated than that, we now have the awkward stage of keeping up the we're-best-friends routine when we both know its not true. Where we go from here is such an empty promise question. We're just too different from our high school selves. The sad part about it all is we spent so much time keeping up this facade and neither one of us has the balls to break it.